Annual Birthday Cry

by Alexandra Carroll (Lexie Carroll)

I don’t want to cry on my birthday

I hate how the mood changes

Everytime I do

But it’s tradition, the annual panic

Another year on this planet

And I haven’t got a clue

But all I want this time

Is to learn how to live in my own damn mind

I’ll be alright tonight

I’ll be alright

I don’t wanna watch my mum getting older

And this house is getting colder

What if nowhere feels like home

And it’s a terrifying time to be somebody’s daughter

Oh there's bodies in the water

And there’s children in the sky

But all I want this time

Is to learn how to live in my own damn mind

I’ll be alright tonight

And all I want this year

Is to learn how to live with the skin I’m in

I’ll be alright tonight

I’ll be alright

But I don’t want to cry on my birthday

I hate how everything’s changed

But I’ve not moved at all