Pain

by Ddendyl Hoyt (Ddendyl Hoyt)

Do you ever wake up and just want to die

Today could be coffee or cyanide

But the anger keeps you alive

And the pain starts to look like the light

So you start to make friends with shadows on the wall

And some people you know are concerned you’re not answering calls

The Shadows say tell them you’re fine

But this is what it feels like

Pain! Rips through my veins to my bones

The darkness it won’t let me go

And no I don’t want it to, no I don’t want it to

Because then all I’ll have is the pain

That’s too much for me to take on

I’ll have to admit you’re all wrong

And I’ll have to let you go

But without the pain I’m alone

Today is the day I’ll get out of this bed

Fight with the demons that live in my head

Fake it until I feel fine

I’m living in yesterday’s lie

They say it’s gonna eat you alive let it go

This pain made a feast of me but what they’ll never know

Is I let it just to survive

And this is what it feels like

Pain! Rips through my veins to my bones

The darkness it won’t let me go

And no I don’t want it to, no I don’t want it to

Because then all I’ll have is the pain

That’s too much for me to take on

I’ll have to admit you’re all wrong

And I’ll have to let you go

But without the pain I’m alone

The second I wake up

I’m back where I started my heart's tachycardic

These tears taste disgusting

I’m so depleted fighting the hell that I’m in

Alone

And this is what it feels like

Pain! Rips through my veins to my bones

The darkness it won’t let me go

And no I don’t want it to, no I don’t want it to

Because then all I’ll have is the pain

That’s too much for me to take on

I’ll have to admit you’re all wrong

And I’ll have to let you go

But without the pain I’m alone

Do you ever wake up and just want to die

Today could be coffee or cyanide

But the anger keeps you alive

And the pain starts to look like the light